Nine Weeks

Mar2

Posted at 4:36 PM • 15 Comments

So today marks exactly nine weeks until I get breast implants. One one hand it seems like it’s still so far away, yet on the other it seems like it will all be upon me in no time at all!

Right now I can’t decide if I’m feeling more excited or more terrified, but one thing I am certain I am feeling is pride in myself. Breast implants are something I have been considering for six years now, but I have backed out of previous arrangements due to my overwhelming phobia of all things medical. Now that I’m at a point where I have committed to this and there really is no backing out, I feel really proud of myself for taking a step towards overcoming something that has been a major fear in my life for as long as I can remember.

No matter how much people try to comfort me, I can not seem to shake my deathly fear of general anaesthetic. I’m not entirely sure what I am scared of, considering I am paying a lot of money to have a highly trained professional anaesthetist overlook my procedure so I’m probably not going to die or anything. Perhaps it is just a fear of the unknown. From what I can gather, it seems to be a pretty common fear.

The thing that really baffles me is that back when I used to party, I was an avid fan of a drug called ketamine, which is the general anaesthetic used by veterinarians to put animals under for surgery. I never had any fears or hesitations whatsoever about railing lines of ketamine that could’ve been mixed with god knows what, but the thought of being anaesthetised by a professional in a controlled situation using a substance made for humans absolutely fucking terrifies me???

I think maybe it’s the idea of having a needle in me that really scares me, because I am and always have been scared of needles. Maybe I should just ask if I can snort the general anaesthetic?! Haha…

Going into this as someone who has never been to hospital, never had surgery and never even had stitches, I feel pretty overwhelmed. In hindsight I feel extremely glad that I decided to go with the more expensive surgeon, because I trust him entirely and I feel safe in his hands. I believe peace of mind is worth the extra $3000.

The countdown to my brand new boobies has begun.

Tags: boob job, Breast Implants, drugs

15 Responses

your amazing hun! and you will be fine!
good on you for doing something you want to do and dont listen to people who tell you not too!
you’ve gotten this far so go for it

✭ mariia on March 2, 2010 at 4:46 pm.
hey you got nothing to worry about ash, take it from some one who had spinal surgery when he was 4. As long as you trust the doctors, you got nothing to worry about.

✭ chicago joe on March 2, 2010 at 4:55 pm.
You’ll be okay as a reader of your blog I’ve watched you push through countless things, and there is definitely no stopping now. My sister went to Thailand to get hers done and but she was absolutely fine. Boob surgeons seem to know where it’s at ;D it’ll be totally worth it so don’t worry your pretty head!

✭ Dani on March 2, 2010 at 6:00 pm.
i think ur tits r nice now but they will be amazing once their done;)

✭ Josh DeVore on March 2, 2010 at 6:18 pm.
Hey Ashlee
COngrats on the boob job!!
Definately worth spending your money and getting it done from the surgeon you feel the most comfortable.
How much are they going to cost you?

PS
You better be putting up photos of them even when they’re swallen so we can see how they look when u get them done
Always wanted to get some myself but havent seriously looked into it due to cost/scared of surgery

✭ Sarah on March 2, 2010 at 6:49 pm.
I understand that 100% i’d be alil afraid too, its scary going into the hospital and having a surgery, the idea of KNOWING is always much more scarier then not knowing. You KNOW your gonna to be put under, you KNOW their gonna be doing the surgery, you KNOW it might be painful those 1st few days afterwards you’ll be sore, so your mind THINKS about it much more. Chances are the day you have your surgery it will be a very nerve racking day for you, but once its over you’ll be okay and soon fully healed and be happy you stuck to your guns and went through with it, that really is something to be proud of, going through with it and facing your fears.

✭ Jason on March 2, 2010 at 7:20 pm.
sounds like you havent watched much nip/tuck???

✭ steve hicks on March 2, 2010 at 7:45 pm.
How many women do you suppose have had this done? It’s nice that you feel safe with your boobs in the man’s hands

✭ Captain Bruce on March 2, 2010 at 8:58 pm.
I had my wisdom teeth pulled last week and was not nervous at all in the days leading up to it. Once I was in the chair though, all kinds of weird thoughts about what they could do to me while I was knocked out started running thru my head. I’m chalking it up to a last second fear of the unknown. Before that happened, I might have chuckled and said your fears are irrational, but I get it now.

✭ Wil on March 2, 2010 at 10:05 pm.
Proud of yourself for overcoming this phobia you have of backing out, but you shouldn’t be proud of stuffing yourself with silicone. Medical procedures are not made for entertainment purposes, they are there for people who really need them, like for people with scar tissue and such… You ain’t gonna die if your tits stay the size they are now. An operation will only bring complications. I’m not here to teach you a lesson, but I’m sick and tired of people who think it’s just like going to the mall and buying a new pair of tits (I know you did your research before getting into this, but a lot of people barely do). Shit, I’m liking your pictures and stuff, but that don’t mean I have to agree with anything you say, so pardon me for telling it straight out to you. Cheers.

✭ John on March 2, 2010 at 10:16 pm.
I knew a few strippers that got them. They haven’t complained about them.They seem to make more with them. I actually like them a lot. I think their hot. but it up to you. Do you check doctors good and bad stories. I watched Breast men movie a while back; I recommend you see it (it breast implant story — good and bad ect.). I personally think it up to you. You will be supper successful either way. I would go to doctor that does 500 to 1000 a year or more that way he natural and knows how to do the job, the most successfully. Or find a good Nip/Tuck Doc. I like the breast job look good.
Good luck and God Bless
space

✭ space on March 3, 2010 at 12:42 am.
I hear ya on the fear factor Ashlee,back in 2000 I had brain surgury and had a bleeding brain aneurysm removed which changed my life and almost killed me cause most folks die from that but this is breast implants so don’t worry sweetie and my prayers will be with ya.
HAVE A SMURFY ONE SWEETIE
Sam

✭ SNEED MAFIA on March 3, 2010 at 3:03 am.
Heyy are you still going to be doing ZOO Vlogs? I havent seen a new one for ages!

✭ Alex on March 3, 2010 at 5:13 pm.
- I sure am! There’s one that is still waiting to go up, and I’m shooting another one this weekend
  
  ✭ Ashlee Adams on March 3, 2010 at 5:45 pm.
Good luck with it, Ash!

What do you think about doing a set of blogs during the recovery period to show women who are thinking about having similar procedures what they could expect?

✭ Dazz on March 4, 2010 at 12:26 pm.

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